When I make a change in my life that I see as a dramatic and drastic improvement, it’s hard for me to not want to impose it on others. If I start exercising more, I feel like saying “c’mon everybody…let’s go to the gym at lunch!” If I’m eating better, healthier foods, I can’t help but notice what other people order in restaurants or put in their grocery carts. I don’t comment out loud, but there definitely is some dialouge going on in my head!
Cutting processed sugar and sweets from my own daily routine has made me hyper-aware when other people eat those things. Today I couldn’t help but notice one person’s giant bakery bagel, both halves, slathered with A LOT of jam…someone else’s slice of leftover ice cream cake…or the sugary concoction a friend ordered at the coffee shop. I think I notice because I’m still attached. I broke up with sugar, but he’s still hanging around, haunting me with his tempting sweetness.
When I’m able to just go through my day eating the things I choose without making notes of other people’s choices, then I’ll know it’s really over between us. Right now it’s like I’m at a party with my ex, and his hot new girlfriend. He’s over me, but I still have something to prove!